When I was younger I dreaded french class. I hated it when people laughed at my pronounciation of certain words and became extremely self-conscious. I do not think my french teachers helped with my confidence either. Reminding me I was Belgian and that I should be better. I had such a strong feeling of fear everytime I entered that class. No confidence. Scared of failure. I felt useless and terrified that I was going to be picked on...
That same feeling is what I feel now everytime I get into a car.
Fear of crashing. Messing up the clutch and the gear stick again. Stalling constantly !!!!
I passed my theory test in 2007, then started univerisity. On returning in 2008, I started to drive seriously during the summer. I took 14 hours of lessons and drove around with my Mum for about a month and a half. Then holidays and uni interfered once again.
I came back this summer of 2009, started driving, still making mistakes and stalling and messing up the gear stick. Not knowing how to go fromn 3 to 2 to 1 smoothly.
I do not understand why my Mum insists on me parking in (dangerous, lots of cars) public areas, like BRUSSELS ( Avenue Louise and Port de Namur-Matonge area) knowing I am not trained yet and then shouting at me foir getting it wrong...
I drove (illegally) to the train station by myself cause that woman made me, she even forced me onto the bloody motorway !! I STALLED ON THE MOTORWAY AT GEAR 1 !!! but I think I will be sticking to the belgian rules next time.
